Being candid about every feeling in life is probably not the best option always. Over the last couple of years, I visited different places, met new people, became friends with some while the others gained place in the outer circle of my life as “acquaintances”.
As days pass by, I realize I am able to deal with the uncertainties of life better. My world has become bigger, my mind has become more liberal, and life seems to paint colorful images of my future with the brushes of success. But the people I would love to share it with have diminished to a great extent. There are hardly a few people, with whom I would be able to fearlessly share the different shades of life.
It’s amazing to notice how the volume of friends has gone down from “plenty” to “just a few”. Interestingly, time and work have not played a big role in this “lay off”! It is more about going different ways, choosing to do different things. In short, it has been all about differences. The best of friends are still located thousands of miles away, yet I know, a short conversation with them can uplift my spirits any day!
When I browse through the social networking websites, I am amazed at the way some people post their pictures (honestly, hundreds of them!) and every other day you will find them visiting new places, attending parties or simply engaged in a weekend of plebeian socializing but making a big deal about it. They, at one time used to be my friends. I am confused.. I don’t understand if I have drawn a sharp line too soon!
I don’t like the taste of alcohol and that comes as the biggest surprise for majority of the people! There have been days when we attended places where people were confused as to what to offer us! “You don’t drink or eat crab meat or minced beef!??/!! You’ve gotto be kidding me!” I am tired of those expressions..
I am tired of the flaunting and exaggeration that people are so used to, now a days! Where’s the simplicity? Where has the time disappeared when close friends gathered on weekend evenings and indulged in the best conversations ever, simply over few cups of coffee lazing in the couches of their own drawing rooms?

How I wish..

Been a while that i found some time to blog! There are times, when I feel like writing so much and sharing my thoughts, but somehow, it never ends up being so!

Life is going on quite well with my mother and my inlaws at home.. hmm, they are visiting us for a month. Everyday, I feel like i need to learn so much more.. need to know how to cook better, talk to people better, drive better..and may be, i should be a little strategic at times too.

Honestly, i think, i had always dreamt of an ideal life..or may be I'm just one of those Pisceans! But, for people who live such a life, dissappointments come too soon probably! Anyways, I miss singing.. how i wish i could sing well. i wish i got my childhood days back and be given the opportunity to learn from ma again.. When didi and I were in school, ma used to tell us to sit with her students and learn..i never felt like doing it at that time. Now, i regret it so much. As kids i think, there are things in life which we should just do, when told to.. we should not be given a choice..I so wish I was forced to learn music. Faintly though, but I still try to keep in touch with music by playing the keyboard that Pri gifted me on my birthday. But, thats not enough.

I miss being the nicest daughter to ma.. feel like giving the best of the world to her. Her arthritis, diabetes, blood pressure problems are taking control over her, by the day. She is no longer the active woman she used to be. Its her first and doctors say, probably would be her last international trip. I want to take her everywhere.. show her around and make her happy. Everyday I pray that she feels better.. my prayers and my love to her always.

Trust me, ma is ma for a daughter.. you can always be 'like a daughter' to someone, but never a 'daughter'. I feel like discussing so many things with Pri ..I wish we have some time for ourselves this weekend...even though we are planning a trip to Niagara Falls..